Risk Taker

I'm not really one. I know I don't want to stay in the program I'm in because I get frustrated easily by the work. I can't stand seeing the fact that I'm wrong and can't correct it and I'm the type that if I know it's wrong I need to be able to fix it. Instead I think about staying in the business studies area, but I would rather not have to specialize. So I found a program, International Business Studies, seems interesting. I look for the program in Canada, no school here has what I want, the only university that has it is Schulich and there I would have to specialize if a miracle occured and I managed to get grades to go there (which is like impossible unless your a genius...) Instead I found an American in Japan (the same one I mentioned in the last entry).

My problem is that I'm not a major risk taker. The thought of going by myself to study in a foreign country (and not even thinking about the amount it would cost me...) makes me extremely nervous beyond nervous. And I keep asking myself if I want to go for the program because it sounds interesting and good to me or is it because I want to go to Japan and experience living there? If it is the second one, does it really make sense for me to spend so much to go study there instead of waiting until after I'm done school (and am working) and vacation there instead? The problem is my vision gets blurred and I can't seem to answer these questions myself because my nervous come up and go omg going away, foreign country, only coming home for summer, rarely seeing your family, being in a foreign country and I go back to trying to think about other things rather than worry...


I know this is so similar to my last post but lately is one of the only things on my mind and I would really love to hear what others think. Although it won't make the decision it may help clear my thoughts while thinking.