School

This time I mean this year, not the worries about next.

I was really worried about this year since I don't really talk to anyone that I didn't go to high school, and even then I still don't talk to people I went to high school with. The thing I realized is that even though people attend school and know others there it doens't guarentee that they're going to end up in classes with people they know, or the chance to sit with those they do. Today I ended up helping the guy next to me in the lab even though I didn't and still don't even know who he is. Although I know common courtesy is to introduce yourself to someone when you start talking part of school is learning to interact with those you never know and trying to get a comfortable feeling while doing so. Same goes with the girls I worked with last week. We teamed up and trusted each other even though we didn't know one another, and who knows, now that the class is moving to labs there is a chance neither of them will ever show up to a class again, but over all I'm learning to work with others, even when it isn't mandatory that I do so. Although I'm still uncomfortable I'm learning to step out a little at a time and work with others. Who knows maybe after this year I will move on to another school and out of my house, even out of country, but at least from this year I will have learnt that sometimes even the things that normally make me uncomfortable can be beaten. Even if it is because of some random person stuck beside me for one day that was a little clueless from time to time...

Maybe stepping out a little this year will let me remove that fear from the equation while I look ahead to my future.