Reflecting on an Old Post

I was reading my old post from the start of this past school year and decided that I wanted to continue on with what happened. This was the post about being uncomfortable talking to new people. Well I managed to do okay with that. In one class we had assignments that could be done in groups of up to three people. Although I was not the first one to talk with both the girls I did manage to work with them in groups for both assignments. Although we didn't talk outside of class I did still manage to talk to them without it feeling extremely uncomfortable.

I did manage to do a little better than that still. The labs I had mentioned in the post did me some good. The first day I ended up sitting next to a pair of friends. I mainly talked to the girl who was directly next to me, but did help the guy on her other side a little. A few days later he realized that he sits directly in front of me in another class. We both were heading to a computer lab to finish our assignments after class so we worked together to finish the assignment due that day. I ended up talking to him by the end of the semester from working on the assignments for class in the same computer lab. The following semester we both had the same classes and most of them together. One day a week we basically had the same breaks so we began working on homework together then. He reminded me of one of my other friends especially when he didn't understand things so the past couple years of explaining things to my friend really helped.

I quite happy to say that I have improved a little in my ability to talk to people I don't know. I even start a conversation with someone who was in all my classes. Lent my book out a few times, once in class and when the guy who was sitting next to me said he didn't agree to share his book with me before I lent mine to the guys in front of me I had talked to him enough that I was comfortable to state that he would share.

Who knows maybe with the next school year I will improve some more :)

1892 Application

So today I was applying for a job and having a horrible time writing a cover letter sort of email. While trying to come up with something I was texting a friend of mine. out of boredom of trying to think I composed a random application statement. This is the result of that writing (with a few grammar and spelling corrections):

Good day sir,

I have heard about the position from the town crier and thought to give my name to the local office. Since it is apparently 1892 and I'm female I have had lessons at a finishing school at which point I learned how to run household finances. I believe this makes me well trained for the job and that you should look no further then my petticoats. Please send word through my father while you are both at the gentlemen's club tonight. And once again good day.



I know this isn't historically accurate or anything, but it was only written in a bit of fun and is not meant to hold any real research of any sort. Although I do think this bit of random writing from the 1892 perspective comes from the fact that I read to much. And the eight new used books I bought this past weekend aren't going to help much (finished the three manga already though :) )

Can Boredom and Exams Lead to Crazy Ideas?

The answer is yes. No I'm not calling the film school plan a crazy idea. That one is legit and I plan on applying once I can find a person to be my reference letter writer (so few choices...) which I probably won't find until after exams. Neither would I call my thoughts as to where I should apply to work crazy, although yes one description included ability to use knives and cut (and before you get any crazy ideas it's a fruit place with fruits cut into shapes!! :P) but no it's this: link

If you clicked on the link before reading the rest of this, congratulations on your curiosity. For those of you who didn't, it's a link to a list of audition places for JYP Entertainment (which is a Korean talent agency). I'm actually considering going to one of the auditions even though I don't exactly have the look they will be looking for and my dancing ability is a little low (not my fault my years of dance were learning traditional) but I have been told that I have a good singing voice (choir director was quite surprised after the first time she gave me a mic to use for a verse [yay for ambition to take the part, was so nervous that day cause it wasn't a school audience but a school board related one])but I'm not sure. I would be fine with the rejection I know that much (and would be majorly surprised with acceptance) but the other thought on my mind is whether or not I should save something as crazy as this until after I finish film school cause I would be back in time for it in 2 years...

So yeah that's my crazy thought today on a day in between exams.

Hello Again...

I really do want to try and get back into blogging, especially since writing things out help clear my mind sometimes. I'm still majorly (to the point of getting ready to apply) looking into changing schools and programs. I'm thinking film since I've always had a love of plot lines and this will allow me to continue to grow with my creative side. Plus I believe the work would suit me better. I'm really not the type who likes to be locked up with repetitive tasks. The only thing is anyone who I bring this up to believes that I should stay in business (before I say film school and just state switching programs, except for one person who still says I'm to good to leave business [which YAY!! but still]).

The hard part is after spending two years in one program and spending 3.5years focusing on this job I'm worried about making the wrong choice. That in the end I will fail or decided that it's still not the right path for me. It makes it so much harder on me since I am such an indecisive person, and to make such a choice just makes me want to stay where I feel comfortable rather then change.

Feeling Bleh

and thinking about how I look to do something more exciting yet everytime I sit there and try to see if the benefits outway whatever I consider the costs... The only problem is by doing this I never do anything... I want to do something, get published, try to do something that I would normally look at and then put aside, and I'm trying to but I like things the way they are where I know I have some form of comfort, yet I always watch shows were the characters do whatever they can for their dreams and wish I could be like them, but I can't even do something like go study international business in Japan. And no it's not my life long dream to work in an international business but from my point of view now it would be better then spending my life pouring over documents making sure everything was prepared properly and the rules were followed... and currently I'm on the path to the second one. Ask any of my friends and they would tell I would love ro go to Japan, even if it means not following te original path I had planned, and at this point it doesn't matter cause I want to change this path and change my future, but really if I could do anything I would go back to what I've wanted for years, to be published, but because I know my chances are low I will stick along a safer path while working towards that. The only problem is not exactly knowning what that path should be anymore. But if anything I wantt to have changed something by this time next year, and not be sitting in my own room at home thinking that I really don't want to continue this way...

Another post where I was just going with my feelings so sorry if it's a little random and doesn't completely make sense... want clarification on anything just leave a comment

A little bit of a homework rant...

I know I should come on here more then to just pour out my stressful decisions and what not, but with school right now it seems like that is all I have. I'm currently working on an assignment due tomorrow at 4. I have class until 2, and I know I won't get up early enough before class to finish this so I must finish it now... And I don't want to worry about being pressed for time to finish the assignment by doing it after class... the other thing is that I have other things I must also do tomorrow, yay for the fact that it is not school stuff to be handed in and marked... I apologize for the really bad grammar in this post my brain is trying to stay econ focused while I quickly get this out. I'll try and post something positive over the weekend. Well for know I must try and finish this assignment, it's currently 1am, shall I make by 2am at the latest my goal? I'll edit this later and tell you all if I managed to make it :)

Random...

I'm don't know why I'm sharing this... it is just a random thought I had, something I would normally post on twitter... but whatever... I just realized that originally I was going to have the one character in the the book I"m writing Ryuu, but I changed the guy and his character slightly so I changed his name. Recently I have started to learn Japanese by self study, the part I found funny cause he was to be a guy claiming to be an international student. Well in Japanese gakusei means student, and ryuugakusei means international student. Upon realizing that I started to laugh... like the title says this is completely random, but something I found randomly hilarious :P