Can't Sleep

It's 1:48 am and I still can't fall asleep. I really wish I could since I have to get up in 5 hours for school, and will soon reach a point where if I go to sleep I will wake up even more tired.

*Death Note spoilers ahead* Although the death of L in Death Note is really bothering me. L was my favourite character. There was something about him that made him the best. Although Near is pretty cool as well, he's not L and you don't seem him as much for as far as I've read. But whenever I see L eating/drinking I end up wanting tea/cake. Now with Mello I want to start eating a chocolate bar. The tea was the easiest since we actually keep some around the house. *end*

I'm now ready to pass out and hopefully a book will help.

Am I Seriuosly in Grade 12????

I know officially, on all the school documents, I am. The hoodie waiting for me, proves that I am. Plus everyone repects the hoodie wearing grade 12s, its proof that your actually in grade 12 and are able to elbow/push your way through the hallway, and the little ones away from your locker. Of course the schol won't give us our hoodies because they want us to wear our school sweaters for a week after Thanksgiving (four day weekend this week WOOH!!!!).

This year my work load is light. No tests in Peace and Politics, mid-term exam and final exam. One english essay so far, informal, first person. A couple Peace and Politics assignments, mainly group work. Although the two guys I had to work with today, were more intrested in their cell phones, but I laugh at thefact I actually wrote something and they left the class with nothing.

All my math homework is done during spare, and I may end up copying the answers from todays homework since I don't happen to be rich and own my own graphing calculator, maybe if I need one for university. So basically all I'm doing right now is working on scholarships, tutoring, and singing.

Maybe life isn't so bad, but after years of being told prepare for grade 12 it's alot of work, and I have it simple a month into school, I really wish I hadn't dread it so much.

Head Hurts

So spinning around for the fun of it, not a good idea. I feel like my head has been hit off a wall a couple of times. I decided to start dancing randomly for fun, since I'm hoping to improve my appearance (I know I'm avoiding the word diet and any thing affiliated with it) by graduation. Dancing has been included because it also gives me something quick I can do when ever I reach writers block on my story. Although I have discovered a con to typing out a story, I get ditracted way to easily. People start talking to me, I look for manga/fanfiction, go onto facebook, start searching for a nw background, but to the opposite of all that it saves trees, then again there is the energy wasted to use the computer...

Plus I may end up going to Hamilton tonight, meaning I'm losing more time writing for the scholarship I really want, so maybe I really should stop procrastinating and start writing.

Ready to Drop

So grade 12 the big year. I need great grades since the Co-op Accounting Program I want cutting off mark is around an 85% average. Although my plan is to go to Brock, if I can't get into the program it will mess up everything I have planned, since I don't plan on living in residence first year. So I have to study really hard in my classes. Plus on tutoring to aim for the 3% extra.

I decided to join book club, because I wanted to. The only problem is buying the books, if I can't get them from library. At least the first book, twilight. I decided I was going to drop choir since the new director is really boring and I don't have time for it right now. My mom says I have to stick with it for a few more practices. Since I skip today's practice I can't sing in the mass this Friday, but it doesn't matter, I'll go just bug the Nire, since they mad when students on spare skip masses.

The only problem with this schedule is that I also need a job since OSAP takes a look at the money your making as well and it always looks bad when your applying for financial help and aren't working. Of course I found the scholarship that I want, now only to meet the demands for it.

It's only the fourth week of school and I'm already looking for freedom. I have written out the countdown to graduation, excluding exams and PA days, plus any other random holiday. I have highlighted every day I get off, and can't wait for Thanksgiving, since I get next Friday and Monday off, plus my brother and step dad are gone for five days.