I have four question parts left to do on my ITIS (information technology something something course... I should know the actual name, but yeah... just asked my friend and she doesn't know either, and were in the same class... although on the bright side great minds think alike, we thought of the same totally wrong answer), but my Nire needs help, so I'm trying to help her over msn. It is hard trying to explain what she has to do in excel, especially when it is a function she has to do, the forecasting question is going to be annoying. The one question I feel like I should know what I'm doing, but I don't especially since I have no clue what alpha is in the question, which is important for part of it. The other question, I'm not sure what it is asking but I need to know it to do the following part which I actually understand. It is frustrating to be soooo close to being able to submit it, yet still not able to. I also only have just short of three hours to finish and submit it. Although doing this with technology is easier than doing it by hand, it can be annoying when you also know that it is due on Friday and not Monday because you can submit all the answer online.

I do not think I have ever worried so much about school and assignments as I have done this year. Which is not good for me, because when I begin to worry I reach a point where my eating habits are off and it gets to me that I know what I am doing (or at least am trying my best) and I still make quite a few mistakes.

Crowded Buses

Sometimes it is almost unbelievable how many people they can get on a bus. At school during busy transportation hours the buses are crowded. I didn't have to ride the bus often growing up since my mom was willing to drive to where we wanted to go. I have taken it a few times before, going to the mall to see a movie with my friends and whatnot, but I can only think of one time when the bus was really crowded. You could tell it was a group of students who were coming home from classes that day. I didn't have to ride for long since it is not far from the terminal to my stop, but now I normally have to ride at least one crowded bus, whether it is the one to or from the terminal to my stop, or one going to or from school. I normally wait until I know I'll be able to get a seat on the bus heading to the university before I get on, which is why I make sure I'll leave early for school. It's not that I'm not willing to stand but somedays when my bag is really heavy I'd rather not have my shoulder feel like it is going to break before I even reach school. In the morning depending on which bus I take going to the terminal I sometimes have to stand, which isn't so bad because the buses isn't crowded to the point where no one else can get on. It is at times like these I wish I had my licence so that I could drive to school, even if parking is expenses and the bus pass is included in tution. Somedays it is nice just to know you won't be crowded in a bus with plenty of other people.

Finally Done Moving

... my stuff at least. It is hard to get everything from one house to the other, and with the heat we've been having lately it is worse. My room is basically done though. I still have a few posters to put up, and I really want to print of some of my favourite pictures, but that is all extras.

I spent a good chunk of today putting together the desk for my room. I had the first part done, then I realized I had messed up two of the bars and would have to take what I had done so far to correct it. The second time around I was slightly more careful, and got it together properly, only gaining one scratch, and not being able to get the tray for the keyboard to slide properly.

Since the bookshelf has come over from the other house, and has been filled with books. Plus the fact there is no chance of anything in my room being moved until I move out. My room is completely finished. The only thing I'm missing right now is the abilitly to walk to my closet without any obstacles in my way, and actually space in my room to move in.

Starting To Hate the Classifieds

In my job search I have been using the classifieds in the local paper to see who is hiring. I'll read a position think, ahh I can apply for this. Then I look at the adress. Most the jobs aren't for this city, instead they are all about a fifteen minute drive away along the highway. This is a problem for a girl who only has her G1, meaning even if I did have a car, I could go that far, not with out someone who has had their licence for five years.

Been in a co-op program it would be nice to have some experience other than babysitting and volunteering in a soup kitchen. Other people within business co-op programs probably have more on their resume and I can already hear people going, we need people with work experience not only good grades. Especially when you have many people from a program applying for co-op work at the same time. I know I will have next summer, but it would be good to have even something small for during the year. Especially simce I do have one day off during the week which will ake my life so much easier.

Either way I hate the classifieds for putting in so many out of town jobs.

Summer so Far... Even if it Doesn't Feel Like Summer

I have been out of school for almost a month now. Time is passing by pretty quickly. I don't feel like I have done much so far this summer. I have cleaned, baked for guest, visited with my cousin who flew up here, been yelled at by my sister (never disturb those who get nervous for big tests while they study), and fought with my brother.

Todays trip to the dentist was quite interesting, I had recently watched a video and the guy in it (Japanese singer/actor) said he had gone for a cleaning for the first time, and he was talking about how loud it is getting you teeth cleaned. It had never really thought about it before but I had gotten used to the routine cleaning at the dentist office. It gave me something to think about at the time, which was good because I always feel weird when they are randomly cleaning my teeth for me.

Other than that I have been packing and unpacking, my family has recently moved, although we still haven't finished with everything. When the shelves were being built for my sisters closet she put some of her boxes in my room and hasn't moved them out yet. I brought over a few boxes, but since my sister and I shared a room before moving most of our stuff was placed in the same boxes so we have to sort everything which is hard to do when she is not willing to help. Most of my room is set up, all I have to do is move my sister's stuff back into her room, clean up enough so I can move my book shelf in. The book shelf is going to make my life so much easier since all my books are sitting on my closet floor right now so I can't put any of my shoes in and it also makes it hard for the movable shelves I put up.

The most useful things I've probably done this summer is pitting cherries and canning beans. At least there will be more help when it comes to canning peaches and tomato sauce.

It's Been A While

I was actually happy to remember my password for my blog without any help.

Today, well yesterday now, was my graduation from high school, I was quite nervous since of course there is always the fear of tripping in front of everyone. The fact that the girls had to carry flowers killed me as well. I find nothing wrong with flowers but holing them nearby for about two hours when your allergic to them can be a little much. The one thing about graduation is that it can make you look back. Even without people mentioning things, my mind still wandered into the past. As I watched some people walk up for their diplomas I thought stuff like, I remember crushing on him, or the fact that we sat next to each other in class which is probably the only reason we've ever talked to each other.

I always thought graduation was only a way to say be to the high school years and show that you are entering the next stage of your life, but somehow by sitting throught the cermony I realized that we are also remembering high school, showing that we are proud of what we have done in our past four years, and that somehow we will make it to the next part of our lives after this, since we've made it so far. Gradution can be a time where one realizes things they wouldn't have thought about if they didn't see everyone walking pass. Hearing what they have accomplished during their past four years, and learning their future plans.

There is also one hope for future graduates at the school I have graduated from, and that is that they don't choose an extremely hot day for your grad. Our school is famous for that and maybe someday, the cycle will break and instead of sitting together in a room that is stifling hot and crowded, you'll be able to breathe and not keep praying for everything to end soon just so that you can get out.

Next Step

I have finally received notice from all 3 (well technically 2, since I decided I didn't want to go to when school so I didn't go write the test, so I for sure can't get in) schools I have applied to. The only problem now is which to accept to. From an outsiders view one is better just because the school is the second best in the province, and has a great business program, the other one does well but it isn't amazing in comparison, as well as the second one is a newer school. Yet from my point of view looking at the programs itself, at the one school I have to start in business then specialize in accounting and am not guaranteed co-op. At the other one I have a guaranteed co-op and it starts with accounting specialization. The other thing I look at is the fact that the better school is away from home, while the better program is in my city. The hardest part is choosing and I need to soon since the busary form I am filling out that is due today wants to know the school of study, and I have yet to accept.

After writing this all out it seems better for me to choose the school close to home, not since it will be cheaper but because it is more specific to what I want, and ensures that I will be able to do what I plan on doing. So know to fill in the school portion of the application so that I have a chance at getting a way to pay for school.